Waiting

“Hope in a better place is all I need, with moments of innocence and mystery.”-City and Colour

IMG_8043HAPPY OCTOBER BABIES!!!!! My favorite month is here and I practically danced my way into work this morning. I love October for so many reasons. It’s the first real month of Fall. It’s the month with two very fun celebrations: my mom’s birthday and Halloween. AND it’s one month closer to my favorite holiday: Thanksgiving! From now until December, it’s literally pumpkin everything. Lattes, pies, ice cream, chapstick, cookies, muffins, and most importantly, BEER! There is so much coming up to be excited about. My blog is going to be taken over by fall festivities and I couldn’t be happier. Share with me all your fall favorites!

City Love

“I tell everyone I smile just because I’ve got a city love.”-John Mayer

How is it Monday already? Seriously? This weekend was absolutely awesome and felt almost like a summer weekend in June. It was sunny and 80 in New York City, so most of our time was spent outside. We walked all over Murray Hill on Saturday afternoon after brunch, went out in Hell’s Kitchen on Saturday night, then it was back to Philly on Sunday morning (just in time for the Eagles game). There will be plenty of weekends in NYC to come in my future. Fall is my favorite season, and spending it in my two favorite cities is going to be fantastic.

Even though this song is from John Mayer’s very first album (which came out when I was in like middle school haha), it’s such a great song and always reminds me of footballs games and pumpkin carvings with my friends and family. Enjoy :)

The Taste of Ink

“And won’t you think I’m pretty when I’m standing top the bright lit city, and I’ll take your hand and pick you up and keep you there to so you can see.”-The Used

IMG_8044TGIF loves! It’s another beautiful fall morning here in Philly and after a long (and somewhat slower) 9 mile run, I’m working from home today. My goal is to clean out my closet before I head to New York City tomorrow morning, so I’m chugging iced coffee and praying to the gods of all things patience and organization. If you don’t hear from me on Monday, it’s probably because I got lost in a sea of jeans.

Here’s what my training log looked like this week!

  • Monday: 4 mile run+abs
  • Tuesday: 8x400s+leg day
  • Wednesday: 4.5 mile run+yoga
  • Thursday: Rest
  • Friday: 9 mile run
  • Saturday: 3 mile recovery run
  • Sunday: Rest

I hope everyone has something fun planned for this weekend. The weather is supposed to be gorgeous and I can’t wait to be back in New York City for the first time since June! Cheers babes!

Lost In My Mind

“Momma once told me you’re already home where you feel loved.”-The Head and The Heart

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetHappy Fall my loves! My favorite season is finally here and I’m too excited to sit still. I’m also quite literally overdosing from all the love that this weekend filled my heart with. This was the first weekend that I had been back to cow country in almost a year. It was pretty weird having to stay at my aunt’s but it still felt like home, nonetheless. Between the friends I caught up with and the family I saw that I haven’t seen in months, I don’t think I have a free minute to myself all weekend. And I loved it. After a beautiful run down some country roads on Saturday morning, I curled my hair, tossed on my cowgirl boots, and go out the Jack Daniel’s. The wedding was in a barn, filled with lights and flowers. The weather couldn’t have been nicer and we danced all night under the stars. After a quick visit to the farm for leftovers on Sunday morning, we headed back to Philly. We got back just in time for a little late Sunday Funday action to celebrate the Eagles’ winning streak. It’s crazy to think I won’t have a free weekend until almost the end of October, but I can’t wait to share all the fun I have coming up with you! Happy Monday loves!

Big Parade

“All the girls with the room keys, they know all his words by heart, by heart and they all sing.”-The Lumineers

551093_10151291729860299_273131705_nTGI-freakin-F! The weekend is finally here and I must say it’s off to a great start already. Last night, Izz and I went to Yakitori Boy for our last dose of Restaurant Week. It was absolutely delicious. Y’all know how much of a sucker I am for sushi, so this place is right up my alley. This morning, I got to sleep in a little bit, and then headed out for my long run. 8 miles in barely 60 degree weather aka a little slice of heaven. The rest of my family is headed back to Central PA this morning, but I’ll be headed back this afternoon once my wedding date gets off work. Side note: how cute were the groom and I back in the day :)

Here’s what my training log looked like from this week:

  • Monday: AM abs+PM 3-mile run
  • Tuesday: AM leg circuits+PM 40 minute tempo run
  • Wednesday: AM upper body weights+PM 4-mile run
  • Thursday: Full-body circuits+45-minute walk with my pup
  • Friday: 8-mile long run
  • Saturday: 4-mile recovery run
  • Sunday: Rest+stretch

After reading through some of the comments from Wednesday’s post, my head is a little bit clearer than it was before and I’m ready to enjoy this weekend with my family and friends. Cheers to the weekend, my loves!

The Places That You’ve Come To Fear The Most

“The grave that you refuse to leave, the refuge that you’ve built to flee is the place that you’ve come to fear the most.”-Dashboard Confessional

IMG_7971My beautiful loves. It’s time for a little confession. I’ve been struggling. For some reason, the past two weeks have been kicking my butt, emotionally and physically. I don’t always publish every little detail and spill every little truth, but every now and then, I just need to let it out. Today is gonna be all about that.

My cousin is getting married this weekend. My cousin and I are only a few months apart and share lots of mutual friends, most of whom will be at the wedding. I know that there will be lots of people I haven’t seen in a while. A few ex boyfriends, a handful of long-lost high school friends. I should be excited to see everyone and to celebrate such a special time in my family’s life. But instead, I’m worried about how I’m going to look and what everyone is going to think when they see me. This will be the first time that I’m seeing these people after my Rewrite Beautiful shoot. Although I received nothing but love and support after the shoot, I still always wonder if people look at me and now only see an eating disorder. Or maybe they’ll look at me and think that I look as bad as I’ve been feeling the past couple of weeks. A couple of years ago, I would have spent months starving and over-exercising to get my body where I thought it should be for this wedding. I would have driven myself absolutely crazy and made myself sick chasing my idea of the perfect weight. Today, I don’t have that same drive. That voice in my head isn’t as loud as it once was. And while that makes me happy, it also makes me sad and a little bit scared. My OCD and anxiety are what drove most of my behaviors when it came to my eating disorder. Now that I’m treating both, I have to dig deeper and find a new source of motivation to keep myself on track. That’s a really scary thought. What if I can’t and I keep getting stuck in ruts? Will I ever be able to find the balance I need to keep myself mentally and physically healthy?

I found an old article on my TimeHop that I posted this time last year. This article says everything I need to keep my head clear and keep myself actively recovering. Be happy now. Stop believing your own bullshit. Stop with the crazy making.

 

Dust

“There’s a future that’s bright in the dead of this night and all she’s gotta do is go.”- Eli Young Band

photo(7)Happy Monday my loves! This weekend was the perfect mix of fun, sweat, and relaxation. On Friday night, after a few too many rolls of sushi, I went out in Washington Square with my two favorites. We had a much-needed night of dancing and wining. On Saturday morning, I woke up and ran some errands with my mom in the morning. Since it was rainy and chilly, the rest of the day was spent watching college football and eating chicken wings. My dad’s wings are one of my guiltiest pleasures, and they really only happen during football season. On Sunday, I was up early to run the 9/11 Heroes Run. This was my third year running it, and I couldn’t have been more excited. Each year, The Travis Manion Foundation heads to the Please Touch Museum, and we run a 3.1 mile loop to honor all those who have risked their lives, and those who have lost theirs, for our freedom and safety. I’m sure I’ve mentioned before that I have family and tons of friends in the military, so races that benefit and honor the armed forces are always close to my heart. This year was extra special because I was able to PR and finish 10th in my division. The only down side…I lost my Garmin, post-run. It was probably all the excitement of running strong, seeing my love Chelsey (visit her blog here!), and having my puppy cheering me on at the finish line. You know what they say, you win some and you lose some. I guess I’ll just have to get the latest and greatest in Garmin running watches. I’m thinking maybe the Forerunner 10? Thoughts?