“I’d want you to know I’m holding loose, but ain’t letting go.”-Matt Wertz
Morning loves! Happy hump day. It’s a frigid 28 degrees here, and I’m seriously doubting that we’re a week away from it being April. It’s hard to believe on Saturday I was sitting outside, getting sunburn on my nose during brunch, and now I’m a bundled up Eskimo. When will this craziness stop?
This past weekend was wonderful, but Monday morning was a serious struggle. After staying out until the sun came up on Friday night, Saturday was spent brunching at Ashton’s Alley, and then hopping around the Lower East Side. Since we all passed out before midnight on Saturday (despite having the idea that we’d actually make it out that night, running on mimosas and 3 hours of sleep), we were up bright and early on Sunday morning. We grabbed brunch at Pranna, and then I headed back on the train. New York is becoming a second home and each weekend it gets harder and harder to leave. The dream of getting a place there is becoming more and more of a reality every day.
I got word from Melissa at M2 Photography on Monday night and my Rewrite Beautiful shoot is going to be happening soon, like really soon. I’m so excited, but also really nervous. The past few months have been an emotional roller coaster, and I feel like this opportunity couldn’t have come at a better time. There have been so many ups and downs, and while I’ve been having a blast city hopping, I still feel like a piece of my heart is missing. I’ve been trying my hardest to get my head and heart aligned, but it hasn’t been as easy as I was hoping. Part of me wishes I could just go back and fix everything and make it perfect again, but a part of me knows that sometimes you need room to grow on your own. I go back and forth almost every day wondering if I should try to make that first move at making peace, or if I should just keep waiting for some kind of sign. I’m trying to restore my faith in time, and believe that everything will happen when the time is right. That’s all we can do, right? How long do you let things go, until you decide that it’s time to take measures into your own hands and control your own fate?
Here’s a little something that has been clogging up my ear holes lately and definitely pulling at my heartstrings. Enjoy!